been a while.

hellooo i havent been on blog for a while. but i have really nothing to say. i must say that i have been a lot happier latley than any days of last year or this year. which works out for me. well i so wanted to go to the spring banquet, unfortunately ended up not going there for some reaons. im okay. there will always be next year.
lalala..this week, i have been so far away from God, the promise that i had with God such as leading the worship, didnt last long and im trying to keep it up no matter what it takes. its so hard to give up things that i like in order to fulfill His satisfaction or needs. welll.
nothing else to say.
lets just be happy for now.

break time n happy bday cassie

yes im leaving soon. im super excited about seeing all the universities in the states, especially harvard. there will be equations and all the shits on all over the wall dont you think?! once i find it out, i will let you guys know homies. full of nerds. anwyay i havent got any car letter from any of you people. how sad am i?! god let me not have a hope in them cause they all suck. lol mhmm i just finished packing, not a lot of stuffs, ive got my mp3 player, some dvd sthat i might get to watch when i have spare time, and english book cause when i come back, i would have a lot of quizs and tests right?! goshh hate this part. mmmm. but when im there, i will have a lot of fun.. personally i have never been to the states soo yeah what a noob. anyway my point being, miss me alot and talk about me okay?! lol

p.s. and on march 24th tell cassie that i say happy her 17th birthday!!
and cass, if you reading this, dont get mad @ me for not being able to be with you and sing happy bday song. i have got no excuse this time. sigh. but be happy and have fun. happy bday.

mmhmm

tough day
i dont know what to say
i just hate myself
hate you john

march break.

so then i had a badminton game few days ago, actually yesterday, but seems to have been long ago. anyway my point being, we lostttt lol we came so close, but i got too emotional and got carried away. and im just assuming that rachel, my partner couldnt say anything but "its okay" everytime because she was afraid that i would go nuts. lol yah she did pretty awesome, but not meeh. ughh we should have won. sry rachel if you are reading this lol haha. mmm lately i havent hung out with my friends whatsoever, kept on making lame excuses so that i didnt have to go out n' chill. i dunno why. i havent been happy for a while for some reasons and especially when my parents and i had this argument about my marks. goshhh i so wanna killl myself. anyway march break yay! time to cool it off, and states in 2 weeks.. i was never excited about one thing like this. lol seriously.
oh and. for those who are going to ofsaa for basketball, hope that y'all losee. im so evil. :D

sweet

im excited. i will get to go and see 20 of universities in states over the march break, well technically, its after march break. 19th to 27th i think. whoaa.. and plus get to skip school.
and i just noticed that during march, only 3 days i would get to go to skewl. see how nice that is?! sweet deal

good talk

in chemistry class, we talked about whether if it is okae to date or good for us to be in a relationship. which was very helpful and i realized again that God should be centred in all i do. he has to be my number #1 pritority you know. gosh it sounds so easy, but its not really when you actually have to make a decision between God and other things im going through right now. anyway i got a haircut and i like it. i like to keep my hair short so it doesnt get in the way. well off topic lol so yeah oh it was funny when she was talking to us, needed some feedbacks from us right?! and all of them started staring at me and asking questions. you could picture that you know. k i was sooo embarrassed really. not at the fact that i had a relationship, but just you know what i mean. neyway. this week was the best week i have ever had this year. wasnt depressed that much lol and good changes although there were some bads. overall, i loved it. i hope that it continues and everything goes well. smile.

oh. and im going to ottawa on monday. at night. so for those of you who read this, write me a car letter cause i wont be at skewl on tuesday you know. :D

valentines day

who wants to be my valentine?! i feel so lonely today lol anyone? k